tormented moonchild

2004-10-24T22:53:00.000-03:00

*sighs* Woe is me... goddamn it, I love Romeo and Juliet. Sorry to all of you "haters" but the story is a great one of love. I am very jealous. I mean, I love Craig (god, who couldn't? He's amazing, smart, funny, has a nice bum...) But I do not think I could kill myself in the name of our love - a thought which should relieve him - but it depresses me because I always thought I would have this passionate, life-or-death, once-in-a-life-time, meant-to-be-together-forever, true love. *sighs* I am corny and read too many crappy romance stories I guess.

Speaking of Amazing Craig, we found an amazing apartment downtown which happens to be next to all the bars, just one street away from our good friend Erin's, and has a freaking CLAW BATHTUB. Only problem, it's WAY more then we can afford :( When we saw it all we could scream was "Yes, yes, yes!" like some cheesy porn movie. Then I had the bright idea of inviting our parents to see it so they would feel more involved . . . big mistake. First of all, before we even go and see the apartment, my parents are warning me that I will be broke (I already knew that). They explained we would need to pay for parking, lights, food, school, etc. . . the list goes on. Then, when we finally reach this amazing apartment, they don't say anything. Nothing. Zip. Not even a "wow, nice tub" comment. At least Craig's mom seemed somewhat enthusastic. Omg, I am tired of this. I want to find a freaking place that is cheap and within walking distance to school. That is it. I don't care if it is a closet or if I have 10 roomates, I just want to leave before it's too late.

Speaking of late, it is way past my bedtime and I have too much homework/catch-up work to do. God I am screwed. Why am I in school? I am just going to fail and be some unwed mother working at Tim's for the rest of the life. With my luck Danny Murphy (the owner) will be the father and I will end up living in a secret room in his basement.

Grr.

2004-10-22T10:14:00.000-03:00

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2. Soundtrack to A Universe: Over 13 billion years ago, the universe exploded into existence. Scientists have "recorded" the sound waves that moved through the expanding new universe. The noise? A scream, then a roar, then a hiss.

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Wow, I am sarcastic. What a surprise.

2004-10-22T09:57:00.000-03:00

Your Sense of Humor is.... Sarcastic

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leaving the nest

2004-10-15T09:31:00.000-03:00

I am actually 90% sure I will be moving out of my house by November 1st. Wow. I thought I would never leave here. I figured I was going to be one of those crazy old ladies who lived her with mom for the rest of her life. I can totally picture it: me with a dozen cats, having to change my mom's diapers, pinching pennies, and buying cat food to use for a tuna sandwich. Ew. I would probably starve to death because I do not really like tuna/cat food.

Craig and I have looked at a few single apartments yesterday. One looks really promising except for the fact that the wall connecting us with our neighbor/landlord looks pretty thin, and I am afraid that they are into loud sex which will make me puke (they are very old). The first place we looked at though was very discouraging/disgusting/expensive. If you ever hear Craig or I refer to something as "Passmore" you know it means it's really bad. This place was crap! It was an old house which was taken care of an old lady who could barely walk up the stairs. The place was dirty and falling apart.... and then we saw the apartment!! *shudders* It was nasty. We should have taken pictures. Thank God for Craig.

I told my parents last night we were considering moving out. I was afraid to tell my dad, but he was actually really cool about it. I am happy because he is such a handyman and can help me around my new apartment (I hope we get a great/cheap one so he is proud of me). My mom on the other hand CRIED. This from the lady who has been telling me to move out for the last 2 years. . . Strange. But I am betting everyone $5 that we will be closer once I move away. The females in my family are weird like that.

We are looking at 2 bdrm apartments as well and hope to get a roomie b/c it seems that for a little bit more $$ we get double the space, cleaner bathrooms, better kitchens, etc. We asked someone already - who we love - but we would be content enough if he just wanted to crash at our new pad every now and then (Craig likes watching him sleep *lmao*). If anyone else wants to move out, and Guy #1 can't, we would def. like to live with you. Especially if you have a nice rack or bum. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

omg, I crack myself up sometimes.

Anyways, must get ready for school.

Ttyl chili.

Is it unfair of me to expect that my brother will return the van to me NOT EMPTY?!

2004-10-02T19:29:00.000-03:00

I am very pissed. And brothers suck. I was at Craig's house for supper and I get a call from my youngest brother, Adam. Apparently our other brother David cannot bring Adam (who is 13) to hockey. So I rush home, very angry, because David is home and can drive, but doesn't want to. At the time I didn't understand why David wouldn't bring Adam. Anyways, we get into the car and I log David's miles (we are keeping track of how much we drive so we can split the gas bill fairly).

So Adam and I are driving down the road and not even 5 minutes from my house BAM! the "gas is low" light pops up. My van is very tempermental. It could die any second or last for another hour, its funny that way. The super unfair thing is that this is the 3rd time in as many weeks that I have gotten into the van and had the light turn on immediately. That's not fair.

So I come home and I ask him, "Why didn't you fill up the van?" (I thought it was a fair question). "Well," he said. "You drive it too." The last time I drove was Wednesday morning and it is now Saturday night and the tank was half full!!! Now it is empty and I am expected to fill it up. Again. Oh yeah, and the real kicker is that David doesn't have any money to pay me back for another 2 weeks because he spent all his money on his girlfriend and food.

I am a goddam UNIVERSITY student with fucking bills to pay! I am not made out of money.

Damn, it's very unfair. *plays angry music that rage about the suckiness of brothers*

[raging moonchild]

2004-10-01T19:10:00.000-03:00

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world, mad world
Enlarge your world
Mad world

Mad World - by Gary Jules

2004-09-30T17:23:00.000-03:00

"the dreams in which i am dying are the best i've ever had."

I love that song. It makes my heart cry and my eyes become waterfalls. I know exactly what he means. "I went to school and I was very nervous, nobody knew me." Wow. God, I am crying already. People do not understand, this guy's voice is amazing. How someone can have this amazing, soul-tearing voice is beyond me.

I went to my first Student Success class today. *hangs head* Now you know what I have kept secret for months. It's boring as hell, but manatory. I have learned one new thing though, I am a failure. No, seriously, before Greg or Tara try and tell me that I am not, it's true. All my study habits are in the below 50 percentile which is REALLY bad. So, besides study habits, I have made a list of all the things I have failed at, or will fail in the near future.

1) Keeping in contact with old friends. I haven't done it. I mean, they email me, call me, and what do I do? Nothing. F+
2) Treating others how I would like to be treated. I failed horribly at that. I expect to get treated like a princess, have everyone love me, and not do anything to deserve that love.
3) .....

Okay, I just got talking to Tara about hot guys from NB and PEI, so I lost my depressing train of thought. Don't worry I will find it soon.

NOTICE: tired.

2004-09-29T18:01:00.000-03:00

i am very tired. tired of class, tired of work, tired of having to cook supper, but mostly i am tired about ppl who keep bitching to me that i do not keep my journal updated DAILY. THAT ANNOYS THE HELL OUT OF ME. i use this journal for my own personal pleasure and to help get things off my chest. unfortunately i do not have shit happen to me everyday and do not feel like writing about what color socks i wore today or what i had to eat.

i love it when ppl email me or leave me comments, don't get me wrong. but when i recieve multiple complaints it makes me hate online journals. i love that people love to know what is going on in my life (it makes me feel a little bit like britney spears *lol*) but i do not have the time nor the desire to write in this thing everyday.

Thanks

Please no more hate mail.

2004-09-15T15:10:00.000-03:00

has anyone ever wondered about the meaning of life? of course they have. the human race is a large group of organisms that think about everything and anything under the sun and at times even the sun. does anyone else find this somewhat depressing?? i mean, not only am i trapped with my ideas bouncing around in my head, but i have the ideas of someone next to me intermingling with mine which makes me.... not me? i mean, at times, the intermingling of idea is a great thing. great things are created, discussed, or disected. but when you have the artifical ideas of someone - say a bitchy girl in your arthurian lit class who only talks to hear herself speak - bouncing around in your head, it tends to contanimate your own ideas.

in case you are highly confused about my little paragraph above, it is about a girl in my Art. Lit class who sits behind me, listens to what I discuss with a fellow student and then raises her perfectly manicured hand and delievers my answers to the teacher (with a couple of "like's" and "ah's" in it.) GRRRR, stupid artifical people!!!! And if that is not bad enough, we were put in a group together, and I had to listen to half an hour of her theories on how "romantic arthur is" and "i wonder if he was hot?"

[very pissed off moonchild]

OMG

2004-09-14T14:39:00.000-03:00

i am so pissed! when i wrote my blog yesterday, i thought is was sept. 12 when actually it was sept. 13 which means i missed a whole goddamn month AND a fricken day!!!! *sighs* this is getting depressing.

more positive news, i sold my psych book to a mental guy today for $70. then i went out and had an AMAZING sandwich at subway. Mmmmm.... orgasmic. :p i think next time i am going to try it without meat though... actually, maybe i will just eat the super soft, herb and cheese bread by its self. i wonder if it's cheaper?

btw, i get paid on thursday, but still will not have any money until about april 2009. damn, i wish school wasn't so expensive.

also, tara "FUCK YOU!" Bob is a beautiful, clean, older gentleman. way hotter than your mike moore. :D (love you)

anyways, have to go get ready to go to work. yay me.

{freaked out moonchild}

wow, time flys

2004-09-13T13:52:00.001-03:00

i cannot believe it is september 12th!!! holy crap, i have missed a month of my life. i swear. the last memory i have is of sarah and kevin leaving. then i woke this morning and realized, "Damn! I have to go to school." Now, I'm Question Mark and I'm wondering, "WHERE THE HELL DID MY MONTH GO?!" (that was a little Radio Free Rosco thrown in there... no i am not crazy) no seriously though. i have spent the entire summer working. i am broke and have bought nothing, but somehow i worked all summer and made tons of money. this makes no sense to me.

on more positive news, i am in love with bob barker and the "Price is Right." i am determined to get a car either by 1) marrying him, 2) sleeping with him, or 3) winning the show. i like #2 the best, b/c then i can tell ppl that i fucked him :p

okay, i have thought about it. if i could look like anybody (who i know) it would be these people:

- King Greg Chandler for his hair
- Tara for her eyes
- Jessica for her clear skin
- Craig for his bum AND teeth
- Mikey for his eyelashes
- I would keep my hands.

i haven't decided who's boobs or feet i would like, so if you have any ideas, just email a picture and i will take it into consideration :p

okay, so now that everyone thinks i am crazy...... asrljesklatjdkgjlakdfjkadfjkadf

haha, i need more sleep.

{sleepy moonchild}

breast cancer

2004-07-27T21:51:00.000-03:00

my mom just told me some really bad news... her best friend from NF has BREAST CANCER!! that is my #1 fear in the world. not to be egotistic, but i love my breasts (or boobies as i fondly call them). i am so terrified for her - she is a great person, but i guess cancer doesn't care who it hurts. the scariest thing is, they do not know if it has spread throughout her body. so when they open her up, they may find just a little lump, or find that it has spread!!! i cannot imagine waking up and one side of my chest flat. i know breasts do not make the woman, but i would be afraid that i would lose part of my feminity, but better that then my life... right?

i think i am not going to NF now... I am going to give my ticket to my mom... please do not kill me guys, she needs it way more than me. Maybe I will be home Xmas?

God, life it so scary.

I am so hungry... cook me food!

2004-07-16T15:23:00.000-03:00

okay... today is my 1st day off in a week and i am so tired. so craig and i slept in until 2:30!! (yay us) Now, he is making me hamburger helper because i do not like to touch the bloody meat. he is so cute!!!! awwww...

anyways, tonight is bracelet night at the summerside fair so i think i am going to drag craig... only
20$ to go on all the rides!!!!

in bad news... i think i lost my ticket to nf!!! it is prolly somewhere in the deep bowels of my room (that i HAVE to clean today!!). if anyone from nf reads this... send me a boat so i do not have to fly!! :D

anyways, i smell breakfast/lunch. CIAO

love,
me

Gross.

2004-06-28T17:19:00.001-03:00

i smell like death, which in my dictionary means i smell like gross coffee - and i do not mean "wake-you-up-in-the-morning" coffee. the coffee at tim's sticks to your skin like tar and covers your hair so that you never feel really clean. i mean, i just got out of the shower, and i STILL SMELL!!!! Grrr, need another bottle of vanilla shampoo i guess.

anyways, on more positive news... I AM GOING TO THE FAIR TONIGHT!! Yay me! :D another plus is that craig is not afraid of any of the rides so i do not have to worry about getting puked on *wink wink Tommy* plus it is really nice outside so i can wear shorts. i just have to remember not to wear flipflops this time... people do not like getting hit with them while i am whirling around :p

Newfoundland is soon! I am so excited!! I even bought a video camera so i can tape all the drinking that will be going on! (yes, i am a nerd)

anyway, later daze
*smiling moonchild*

work sucks.

2004-06-17T11:53:00.000-03:00

no offense to craig, but i hate working with him. i love hanging out with him OUTSIDE of work, but my day always goes downhill when i see him there because a) the uniforms suck and are major unflattering, b)it is as warm as hell in the drivethru which means my face is either red or sweaty and c)i curse at customers when their back is turned... not very nice of me :D

but, whenever i mention my list, he always says, "I meet you for the first time there and I fell in love with you there." Awwww.... I LOVE HIS BUM! hehe

anyways, laurie - manager at tims - interviewed my younger brother and told ME that she was going to hire him, but told him she would call him on tuesday (which was 2 days ago). SHE DIDN'T CALL HIM! so now he is all depressed and stuff (he's only 13, give him a break) and i am just pissed.

in more positive news, i cleaned my room and didn't die. also my ticket to nf is def. booked and someone special is going to be there aroundt the same time i am... hehehe, only i know who.

i bought a pair of PINK sneakers, all i need now is a PINK purse to complete my barbie outfit... i can't wait until tara sees it, she is going to die! :p

anywho, i need to get ready for work, tired/grumpy/clean moonchild

god i hate mondays.

2004-06-15T15:04:00.000-03:00

god i hate mondays. although i just looked at my clock and realized it is really tuesday. i hate working full-time and losing days, especially mondays. grrrr.

i have king crimson's "moonchild" stuck in my head... "lovely moonchild." i can't find the cd anywhere though.

i bought lorts on extended dvd last night, i am so excited! i cannot wait until the return of the king goes extended because they cut a lot of scenes.

i also saw "the stepford wives" with tara et al. last night, it was def. not worth 7.25$

i bought new shampoo today and it makes my hair smell like vanilla. i wonder if there is any that smells like chocolate?

anyways, i need sleep and maybe some breakfast

call her moonchild

2004-06-15T15:01:00.001-03:00

call her moonchild
dancing in the shallows of a river
lonely moonchild
dreaming in the shadow
of the willow.

talking to the trees of the
cobweb strange
sleeping on the steps of a fountain
waving silver wands to the
night-birds song
waiting for the sun on the mountain.

she's a moonchild
gathering the flowers in a garden.
lovely moonchild
drifting on the echoes of the hours.

sailing on the wind
in a milk white gown
dropping circle stones on a sun dial
playing hide and seek
with the ghosts of dawn
waiting for a smile from a sun child.

I am not dumb.

2004-06-15T14:02:00.000-03:00

okay, the world makes sense again. I am not stupid. I went to the "help" page (yes i am a nerd) and found out that there is a problem with editing your profile... that was why i was having trouble! yay me! :p so now i am happy... "happy moonchild."

tormented moonchild

2004-06-15T13:58:00.000-03:00

god. i hate monday mornings. i just looked at the calendar though and realized it is tuesday. i hate working all day and miss living a monday. i have king crimson "moonchild" stuck in my head... "lovely moonchild..." wow.

i had an interview today at the "hill," think i may have gotten in, but will have to wear a uniform and get paid a dollar less than i am making now (being a tim's bitch) but i think the tips will be worth it - especially if i smile and shake my "tata's" at the old men - ew gross.

bought lotrs fellowship of the ring last nite on extended dvd, woo-hoo! i am uber excited, cannot wait until the return of the king comes out on extended dvd... "lovely moonchild..." haha

i need sleep and maybe some breakfast.

Confuzzled

2004-06-15T13:38:00.000-03:00

okay... i am not blond, but i cannot figure this thing out! i mean, i always thought i was half decent on computers, but give me something like this blog thing where the template is already made up for you and i go stupid! grrr... it's frustrating... "angry moonchild."